Depression is a very common thing in this world and more than half of the population experience depression. It's not fun to go through but this will get you through it, and may the God of peace and our Lord and savior be with you. It's okay to not be okay sometimes but what's not okay is giving up, remember John 10:10 "The thief's purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life."